Jesus Has My Whole Heart - A Guest Post

This past spring one of my friends asked me why I choose to give Jesus my whole heart. She asked "what’s so good about Jesus" to me personally? She asked why I choose to follow and listen to His commands, instead of partying and pursuing guys. She asked this question out of pure curiosity, not to challenge me or shame me. She didn’t know how it pierced into my heart like an arrow and got me questioning everything I believed in.

On the outside, it looked like Jesus had my whole heart. I was trying to bring more people to know Him, I was holding a Bible study in my room, and really did have a genuine desire to bring others His good news like never before. But, when my friend asked me that question, I didn’t have an answer. I didn’t know why I was trying to bring them Jesus because I didn’t know what having a close relationship with Him was doing for me in my life. I looked back at my life so far and it didn’t seem like God had followed through with any of His promises I read about in the Bible. Where was the joy, peace, and confidence I was supposed to have? Where was this freedom and satisfaction that only He could provide? Where were the answers I knew I should have been able to give her?

I started asking close friends who were also strong in their faith, what having a relationship with Jesus did for them. I researched all God’s promises in the Bible. My heart was thirsty for an answer to this question and it longed to be quenched with something that was simply enough for my heart so I could genuinely tell my friend why Jesus was worth giving my everything to. And the honest truth is that I searched and searched and found nothing that my heart was able to say “that’s it!” to.


Do you ever feel like there just aren't enough hours in the day? I frequently lie down at night and feel like there are a million and one things I didn't get to yet. Because of this, I often go to bed with the feeling of unrest; and anxiety because these things don’t just disappear, they just get added to tomorrow’s to-do list. It’s a never-ending cycle.

It sometimes feels like my life is flying by and all I want is for it to s l o w down.

I try to appreciate the season God has me in and not rush it behind me, but that’s difficult with an endless list of things to think about and a hundred plans to be made. 

But I wasn't made to run around like a chicken with my head cut off. 

Some days I forget to eat because I've jam-packed my schedule THAT much. 

Raise your hand if you can relate!

Our world loves being busy! We love telling everyone about how many things we can pack into one day. We envy the busy bees. In a world that glorifies busyness, it can be so hard to actually desire and seek rest. 

But y'all, it is so essential for our souls! 

If you resonate, I want to share with you some of the ways that I intentionally seek rest in my life – which is currently the busiest season for me so far.

Start your days with slow, silent prayer.

I tell the Lord the things on my heart. Laying my desires before the Lord, allows Him more space in my life to work in those particular areas and it gives me a beautiful lens to see Him move mightily as He starts to align my desires with His.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30

“Take delight in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

FALLing for Boston

This past weekend I had the awesome opportunity to travel to Boston with my little sister. I've been to Boston a few times and it never disappoints! I don't consider myself to be very traveled, but I do have to say that Boston is my favorite city so far! I just love the charming character that lies within each and every street.

The purpose of our trip was to see our favorite YouTubers (geeking out just a bit), Jess + Gabriel... but more on that later. We also spent time exploring the city and so I wanted to share with you some of the highlights!

First we went to the Lawn on D. One of my favorite things about Boston, compared to other cities, is that it is full of greenery. There are so many parks and grassy areas to hang out and relax. The Lawn on D is one of them.

God Blessed The Broken Road That Led Me Straight To You

My first year of high school I told people I wasn’t going to wear makeup until my wedding day because I wanted to look as beautiful as humanly possible for my husband.

Then I met a boy. 

He was charming. He was cute. He was funny. I spent everyday thinking about him and desiring his attention. I was on cloud nine when he asked me to be his girlfriend on my 15th birthday. This was my first boyfriend and I was ecstatic because all the popular girls had boyfriends and now I was dating one of the popular guys.

You can imagine the heartbreak I felt after eight weeks when he broke up with me over the phone while I was halfway across the country, telling me that he no longer “liked” me. I spent the next three years of my high school career longing for this boy back.

At this time, I was still a Christian. I went to church every Sunday with my family and cracked open my Bible about once a month. It was more of a Sunday Christian type faith and nothing like the relationship that my church spoke of.

By my junior year in high school I knew that a few of my friends were having sex. But I was very particular even about my first kiss. Some guys would call me prude and some of my friends would ask me why I hadn’t kissed anyone yet and I’d always tell them how I wanted it to be absolutely perfect and that I could wait a couple more years if it meant I got that perfect Ross and Rachel, Luke and Lorelei, Noah and Allie type kiss. I wanted it to feel so special. So I never kissed anyone or did anything for all of high school. No one was worthy enough in my eyes.

Come To The Alter: A Story of Love and Surrender

When I first started this blog, I didn’t see much good produced from it. I didn’t see the point. I felt like I was writing and no one was reading. When I first started this blog, I obligated myself to write about topics I thought people would want to read about; instead of being raw, honest and personal.

I avoided talking about my personal life, at all costs, because I wasn’t living a life that reflected what I said I stood for. I was preaching the goodness of God, but I wasn’t experiencing it in my life. I wanted so badly to experience God like I saw with so many others but I just couldn’t. And quite honestly, I didn’t have the desire to because the life I had created for myself was exceptionally appealing on the outside and it was relatively comfortable on the inside. And I had heard rumors about what happens when God gets involved.

I pursued all I wanted in life. I spent my time chasing down a boyfriend, some good friends, a steady income, a fun job, the latest fashion trends, and other idols. My plan was that once I obtained all these things, I’d figure out a way to fit God in between the lines and all would be well.  

Not only was I running towards everything but God; I was clinging to these things because they provided momentary contentment. I wouldn’t allow them to be taken from me because they brought security.  Any other way would require some sort of faith, and that wasn’t something that sat well with me. If God wanted to have a say in my life, then He was going to have to work with the plans I already had underway.

For years and years I did not feel God’s presence in my life.

And I wondered why.