Fulfillment of the Heart

Virtually all us are perpetually pursuing a path of some sort. I'll speak for myself but mine is often a path of seeking to be like somebody and everybody else. I constantly look to other girls' Instagrams and blogs thinking, "If only my Instagram had beautiful photos like hers, if only I could portray my thoughts with such profound language that got the attention of a jillion people like she does. If only, if only, if only......then  I'd be successful. Then I would be fulfilled."
I always find myself desiring the talents, thoughts, words, things, etc of absolutely everyone else and never being content with what I have. I often question why the Lord provides others with wonderful talents and yet He leaves me empty handed. (I'm shaking my head at myself as I write this.) This extensive search for fulfillment from all kinds of places constantly leaves me feeling drained; not to mention it's literally so tiresome. I feel like I will never, ever be able to meet the expectations of this world. Wanting what everyone else has is a never ending tunnel with absolutely no light at the end of it. It's a struggle that leads to deep and dark places of depletion and burnout. I try filling voids in my heart with anything that seems appealing to me. I look to so many things to make my heart full. At the time, certain things seem to fill this void and I think, "Okay I've got this." It's not long after these things run out and I'm left again feeling exhausted and anxious about the next thing. I feel like I'm running on a treadmill that is set to go ten speeds ahead of how fast I'm humanly capable of running. I sometimes feel like I'm running a race without any prospect of a finish line.
But Jesus.

If all of us were professional photographers, this world would be quite boring, don't you think? It is a gift, it is a wonderful thing that we are all different. I love Romans 12:6 because it says "In his grace, God has given us different gifts for doing certain things well." I may totally suck at writing, but that's positively alright. I don't know the first thing about operating on someone's heart. If I tried to build a house I would fail miserably. Friends, it is so so so important to recognize that God is carefully writing such an exquisite and unique story just for you.
I feel like Jesus is trying to tell me that just because she is a good writer, just because she is a good photographer, just because she has a knack for this or that, does not mean that my gifts are not just as completely wonderful.
1 Corinthians 12: 4-6 says, "There are different kinds of spiritual gifts, but the same Spirit is the source of them all. There are different kinds of service, but we serve the same Lord.God works in different ways, but it is the same God who does the work in all of us." Car engines weren't created to run on just one part. Engines have a multitude of various parts that are all required to make it function for its purpose. Every part of the engine is unique to itself but when all the parts come together, they all run on gasoline and they all serve the same purpose. No two of us are exactly alike, thank you Lord. We all have a different role in building the Kingdom but we all serve the same purpose. We all have one thing in common and that is we all run on Jesus. 
True fulfillment comes in Jesus. Once you take that and engrave it in your heart and soul and rely on it as your true identity, it is then that you will experience rest. The beauty of all of this is that you don't need to keep running. You don't need to keep searching for things to fill your heart. The finish line has already been established. The race was already prepared and carried out. God knows what he was doing when he made you. I am human and I fail to remember this time after time but Jesus says, "You don't understand now what I am doing, but someday you will." I hold onto this hope.
Let's seek and strive to be like Jesus. Let's be so full of the Holy Spirit that we don't need nor desire anything of this world. He cares about your heartHe doesn't want you to be like her. He didn't make you to be like her. He made you for a far greater purpose than chasing after temporary and worldly things.
↠↠↠↠ Jesus, guide me down a stream that is rich in minerals of your steadfast love, peace and strength. I give you permission to intervene and set my heart on fire for You in a world that is flowing further and further away from You and perpetually putting light on worldly things, things that are not of You. Draw me away from the expectations of this world and draw me near to Your word so that You may speak to me through it. I want to be exactly who you created me to be. Help me to confidently accept myself as being fearfully and wonderfully made by You. Provide me with Your peace in securing my identity as radically loved by You. You are all I need.↞↞↞↞
Happy Sunday y'all!

No comments